need it

accident \AK-suh-dunt\

noun
1 a : an unforeseen and unplanned event or circumstance b : lack of intention or necessity : chance
2 : an unfortunate event resulting especially from carelessness or ignorance
3 : a nonessential property or quality of an entity or circumstance

It's no accident I wake with the striped shirt tangled around me. I sleep with it religiously every night; staring at the stitching, repeated over and over, alternating colors, calms my mind when the dreams refuse to come.

awake

recalcitrant \rih-KAL-suh-trunt\

adjective
1 : obstinately defiant of authority or restraint
2 a : difficult to manage or operate b : not responsive to treatment c : resistant

My body is a recalcitrant fortress, certainly no temple. Even two tablets in, there's no sleep to be had.

blah

agog \uh-GAHG\

adjective: full of intense interest or excitement : eager

Fuck being agog about anything.

push it

satiety \suh-TYE-uh-tee\

noun
1 : the quality or state of being fed or gratified to or beyond capacity : surfeit, fullness
2 : the revulsion or disgust caused by overindulgence or excess

The trick is to convince yourself of satiety before the satiation hits. Or just lose your mind and believe you can live off apples. Either way deception is necessary for beauty.

stamp me

validate \VAL-uh-dayt\

verb
1 a : to make legally valid : ratify b : to grant official sanction to by marking c : to confirm the validity of (an election); also : to declare (a person) elected
2 a : to support or corroborate on a sound or authoritative basis b : to recognize, establish, or illustrate the worthiness or legitimacy of

I need validation. I get it from the wrong places and I know it. But I don't know how to change it.

oh well

putative \PYOO-tuh-tiv\

adjective
1 : commonly accepted or supposed
2 : assumed to exist or to have existed

It's the putative theory that girls are emotional and attached I wanted to dispel. I'm failing.

get naked

bon vivant \bahn-vee-VAHNT\

noun: a person having cultivated, refined, and sociable tastes especially in respect to food and drink

This bon vivant is off to burlesque.

worship

lunette \loo-NET\

noun
1 a : something that has the shape of a crescent or half-moon: as b : an opening in a vault especially for a window c : the surface at the upper part of a wall that is partly surrounded by a vault which the wall intersects and that is often filled by windows or by mural painting d : a low crescentic mound (as of sand) formed by the wind
2 : the figure or shape of a crescent moon

The lunette glow of the Cheshire cat moon is the only thing I believe in. Even though Juliet disapproves.

girls girls girls

cachinnate \KAK-uh-nayt\

verb: to laugh loudly or immoderately

With all the hype about HBO's Girls, I expected it to be enjoyable. Not necessarily something to cachinnate over but damn. That was like the most depressing thing I could have done tonight.

mind boggle

abstruse \ub-STROOSS\

adjective: difficult to comprehend

Living on the east coast was not nearly as abstruse as coming back to Tucson. This is so confusing.

i disagree with the phonetics

spiel \SPEEL\

noun: a voluble line of often extravagant talk : a speech delivered especially to sell or promote something

So many people feel the need to give me the "better now than later" spiel, but it doesn't help. Time is all I wanted with him. I would give what's left of me for a few more weeks, even a few more days by his side.

webbed

patagium \puh-TAY-jee-um\

noun
1 : the fold of skin connecting the forelimbs and hind limbs of some tetrapods (as flying squirrels)
2 : the fold of skin in front of the main segments of a bird's wing

Captivated as I was by my furry friends in Independence Park, I never noticed one to have any type of patagium. Perhaps flying squirrels and their more ambulatory kin don't share social circles.

books books books

unabashed \un-uh-BASHT\

adjective: not disconcerted : undisguised, unapologetic

I'm unabashedly grateful for the Pima county library system. Without which I would not be able to survive.

hominy

kowtow \KOW-tow\

verb
1 : to show obsequious deference : fawn
2 : to kneel and touch the forehead to the ground in token of homage, worship, or deep respect

Given the chance, I'd kowtow to hear you say cow tail.

wrong

pace \PAY-see\

preposition: contrary to the opinion of — usually used as an expression of deference to someone's contrary opinion

Pace everyone who says I'll be ok, I'm not. I've lost an integral part of myself and don't know how to function anymore.

isn't in me

vindicate \VIN-duh-kayt\

verb
1 a : avenge
2 a: to free from allegation or blame b : confirm, substantiate c : to provide justification or defense for : justify d : to protect from attack or encroachment : defend 2 : to maintain a right to

Everyone seems to think I would be vindicated to hate you. That anger should come from my pain. I can't. It's just not in me to feel that way about you. I'd be lying to myself if I went down that path.

unaffiliated

gregarious \grih-GAIR-ee-us\

adjective
1 a : tending to associate with others of one's kind : social b : marked by or indicating a liking for companionship: sociable c : of or relating to a social group
2 a a of a plant : growing in a cluster or a colony b : living in contiguous nests but not forming a true colony — used especially of wasps and bees

No one has ever accused me of being the gregarious type. Perhaps there's not a colony that I belong to out there.

starting over

threshold \THRESH-hohld\

noun
1 : the section of wood or stone that lies under a door
2 a : the means or place of entry : entrance b : the place or point of beginning
3 : the point or level at which a physical or mental effect begins to be produced

I've been here before, I know what it looks like. But this time it's unwelcome and full of pain. I can't be at the threshold of a new beginning if I'm still spiraling into the abyss.

psychopharmacology

alleviate \uh-LEE-vee-ayt\

verb
1 a : relieve, lessen: as b : to make (as suffering) more bearable c : to partially remove or correct

Psychopharmacology began alleviating our suffering in 1954 with Thorazine. In 2012, they give it to you for hiccups. But there's still to pill to cure a broken heart.

past-future

hyphenate \HYE-fuh-nayt\

noun: a person who performs more than one function (as a producer-director in filmmaking)

Just as the producer-filmmaker fulfills multiple roles, so does the married hyphenate née maiden.

i like it rare

incunabulum \in-kyuh-NAB-yuh-lum\

noun
1 : a book printed before 1501
2 : a work of art or of industry of an early period

I always loved the incanabula and illuminated manuscripts in the UofA special collections. I wanted to explore the rare book department at the Free Library off the parkway. It would have been enchanting to see one of Shakespeare's first folios.

bad girls win

devious \DEE-ve-us\
adjective1 : deviating from a straight line : roundabout 2 : behaving wrongly : errant 3 : tricky, cunning; also : deceptive.

Of all the things I'd like to be, good or bad, I choose devious.

reptile turncoat

resile \rih-ZYLE\

verb: recoil, retract; especially : to return to a prior position

I'm not comfortable resiling which causes a problem when I'm actually wrong.

not today

multitudinous \mul-tuh-TOO-duh-nus\
adjective
1 : including a multitude of individuals
2 : existing in a great multitude
3 : existing in or consisting of innumerable elements or aspects

knee-jerk \NEE-jerk\
adjective: readily predictable : automatic; also : reacting in a readily predictable way

After multitudinous knee-jerk reactions to my situation, I'm still here. I know rash decisions won't get me home. Though I can't say I'm content in my exile.

fml

demarcate \dih-MAHR-kayt\

verb
1 : to fix or define the limits of : delimit 2 : to set apart : distinguish

Today I thought the end was near. Evidently I fucked up when those boundaries were demarcated too.

sharp cheddar top

pippin \PIP-in\

noun
1 : a crisp tart apple having usually yellow or greenish-yellow skin strongly flushed with red and used especially for cooking 2 : a highly admired or very admirable person or thing

It's true: Pippins are exceptional cooking apples. I prefer them to Rome and Granny Smith varieties, but often find them a bit more laborious to find.

mermaid hair

oppugn \uh-PYOON\

verb
1 : to fight against 2 : to call in question

As the salmon swims upstream, I too feel it necessary to oppugn that which faces me.

burn

élan \ay-LAHN\

noun: vigorous spirit or enthusiasm

There's a certain élan necessary for getting to the gym at dawn. In nine hours we shall see if I possess it.

stop talking

secrete \sih-KREET\

verb
1 : to deposit or conceal in a hiding place 2 : to appropriate secretly : abstract

fallacious \fuh-LAY-shus\

adjective
1 : embodying a fallacy 2 : tending to deceive or mislead : delusive

When your mouth opens to secrete fallacious arguments, please realize I don't care and no, you can't get into van Gogh early. Even if you do pronounce it "van Goccchhhhh."

Especially if you pronounce it "van Goccchhhhh."

grand un-opening

instauration \in-staw-RAY-shun\

noun
1 : restoration after decay, lapse, or dilapidation 2 : an act of instituting or establishing something


In purchasing a foreclosure, I was prepared for a serious instauration. Two and a half years later, I'm still waiting for it to be complete.

nothing left to give

nugatory \NOO-guh-tor-ee\

adjective
1 : of little or no consequence : trifling, inconsequential 2 : having no force : inoperative

What's left of my brain after 16 hours in the ticket center is nugatory.

numbskulls

quietus \kwye-EE-tus\

noun
1 : final settlement (as of a debt) 2 : removal from activity; especially : death 3 : something that quiets or represses

The magic words "sold out" should put the quietus on any grumblings about getting spex tickets. Unfortunately it only inspires the masses to goad you and make sure I'll "look harder."

silicone smiles

winsome \WIN-sum\

adjective
1 : generally pleasing and engaging often because of a childlike charm and innocence 2 : cheerful, lighthearted

Though winsome in nature, I can be a bitch in more plastic environments.

twins not always double the fun

diplopia \dih-PLOH-pee-uh\

noun: a disorder of vision in which two images of a single object are seen because of unequal action of the eye muscles — called also double vision

Do you think those with diplopia don't take as many tomatoes from the salad bar as they'd like? Maybe the two dozen roses on Valentine's day makes up for it.

hamster wheel

immense \ih-MENSS\

adjective
1 : marked by greatness especially in size or degree; especially : transcending ordinary means of measurement 2 : supremely good

There are says my life is unmarked by immense boredom. My face begins to feel how much it hasn't spoken, but there is very little of consequence to say.
Today was one of those days.
Which would be fine, except that I have to do it all over again tomorrow.

pathetique

yuppify \YUP-uh-fye\

verb: to make appealing to yuppies; also : to infuse with the qualities or values of yuppies

Not sure things can be yuppified any more than they already are. I'm starving for some counter-culture.

back on it

abeyance \uh-BAY-unss\

noun
1 : a lapse in succession during which there is no person in whom a title is vested 2 : temporary inactivity : suspension

My master plan for daily gym trips was in abeyance but I have now successfully made the transition to pre-work workouts which give me no excuse for failure.

see the forest for the bark

bosky \BAH-skee\

adjective
1 : having abundant trees or shrubs 2 : of or relating to a woods

I've always wanted to live in a bosky environment, but part of me will always understand gravel as a front lawn.

closer

livelong \LIV-lawng\

adjective: whole, entire

All the livelong day I think about sex. It gets me in trouble.

in the mouth

viva voce \vye-vuh-VOH-see\

adverb: by word of mouth : orally

There will be no viva voce vote on oral matters. Some things speak for themselves.

truth in advertising

exegesis
\ek-suh-JEE-sis\

noun: exposition, explanation; especially : an explanation or critical interpretation of a text

One day there'll be an exegesis of my rambling, incoherent blogs.

plethora of problems

co·pi·ous\ˈkō-pē-əs\

adjective
1 a : yielding something abundantly
b : plentiful in number
2 a : full of thought, information, or matter
b : profuse or exuberant in words, expression, or style
3 : present in large quantity : taking place on a large scale

Despite copious amounts of free time yesterday, I couldn't log on to blogger to write. Stupid airport wi-fi.

catch me if you can

aubade \oh-BAHD\
noun1 : a song or poem greeting the dawn 2 a : a morning love song b : a song or poem of lovers parting at dawn 3 : morning music

abnegate \AB-nih-gayt\
verb1 : deny, renounce 2 : surrender, relinquish

rabble \RAB-ul\
noun1 : a disorganized or confused collection of things 2 a : a disorganized or disorderly crowd of people : mob b : the lowest class of people

critique \kruh-TEEK\
noun: an act of criticizing; especially : a critical estimate or discussion

I've been slipping. My daily critique of the world has been stifled and mashed into a rabble of sorts in an effort to catch up. Hopefully I've done my part and we can now return to our daily musings and dictionary inspired aubades.

doggie style

mutt \MUT\

noun
1 : a stupid or insignificant person : fool 2 : a mongrel dog : cur

You must be a mutt to need mutt as your word of the day.

bow before me fools

vade mecum \vay-dee-MEE-kum\

noun
1 : a book for ready reference : manual 2 : something regularly carried about by a person

Four hundred years from now, they'll be carrying The Final Testament of the Holy Bible by James Frey like the vade mecum it deserves to be.

faux paws

catercorner \KAT-ee-kor-ner\

adverb or adjective: in a diagonal or oblique position : kitty-corner

I am now horrified that I've been spelling this incorrectly for years. I've been putting pussies in catercorner nooks and didn't even have the decency to know I was pawing a solecism.

tumble with me

ludic \LOO-dik\

adjective: of, relating to, or characterized by play : playful

Blonde hair makes me quite the ludic little frolicker.

kiss my arse

adulation \aj-uh-LAY-shun\

noun: excessive or slavish admiration or flattery

Adulatory worship isn't my box of socks, so I choose to keep my witty criticisms to a select audience.

when they think you're not looking

prescind \prih-SIND\

verb: to withdraw one's attention

We've been affected. Blogger has forced our hand to prescind yesterday's word: cacography. That's like word terrorism on word terrorism.

kissing cousins

propinquity
\pruh-PING-kwuh-tee\

noun
1 : nearness of blood : kinship 2 : nearness in place or time : proximity

All the people who bitch about gay marriage probably have a tad too much propinquity in their family trees.

strung out

circumvent
\ser-kum-VENT\

verb
1 : to hem in 2 : to make a circuit around 3 : to manage to get around especially by ingenuity or stratagem

I am so tired and wound up from today, I'd love to skip this blog but I can't find a clever way to circumvent the process.

lame programming

lymphatic \lim-FAT-ik\

adjective
1 a : of, relating to, or produced by lymph, lymphoid tissue, or lymphocytes b : conveying lymph 2 : lacking physical or mental energy : sluggish

Yeah, yeah, I get it. It's cancer day. I should be emphatically encouraging you to check out with your doctor if you're feeling chronically lymphatic. But really, just grow up and stop eating trash.

damn

gam \GAM\

verb
1 : to have a visit or friendly conversation with 2 : to spend or pass (as time) talking

Because I was up gamming all night, I missed yesterday's posting.

stick it to me, hard

stiction \STIK-shun\

noun: the force required to cause one body in contact with another to begin to move

The friction from the stiction made for one wild night.

zenithphobic

heyday \HAY-day\

noun: the period of one's greatest popularity, vigor, or prosperity

I think I'd prefer to announce my heyday posthumously. Once you proclaim you're at the top, you have a long way to fall - unless you're already safely secure and shrouded.

horsing around

gambol \GAM-bul\

verb: to skip about in play : frisk, frolic

I'm in the mood to gambol and gamble in Las Vegas.

golden nectar

elixir \ih-LIK-ser\

noun
1 a : a substance held to be capable of changing metals into gold b : a substance held to be capable of extending life c : cure-all d : a medicinal concoction 2 : a sweetened usually alcoholic liquid

I need to find a me- specific elixir. It was gin-based for awhile, but I feel like there needs to be additional experimentation. Whiskey is a viable candidate.

beach hopping

Cook's tour \COOKS-TOOR\
noun: a rapid or cursory survey or review

A Cook's tour of the Cook Islands sounds like a fine time, but a chef's tour may be more enjoyable.

rainbow brite was my bitch

bright-line \BRYTE-lyne\

adjective: providing an unambiguous criterion or guideline especially in law

There needs to be a brite-line rule about adults wearing cartoon paraphernalia. No one over the age of 12 should be buying Rainbow Brite underoos, nor should Hot Topic carry them.

deadly with feathery things

arbalest \AHR-buh-list\

noun: a crossbow especially of medieval times

I didn't have a chance to get pictures of the arbalests in the Arms & Armor collection at work. Too busy with first night of Van Gogh!

diamonds were supposed to be forever

loath \LOHTH\

adjective: unwilling to do something contrary to one's way of thinking : reluctant

I am loath to buy my wedding bands from Safian & Rudolph, as I loathe the fact that my engagement ring is constantly breaking. Resized twice, lost stones, loose stones and I have nightmares about it!

backtrack

intercalate \in-TER-kuh-layt\

verb
1 : to insert (as a day) in a calendar 2 : to insert between or among existing elements or layers

I wish blogger had an intercalating feature with which I could insert the day I missed. January 18 really screwed up my record. :(

don't drink the [dirty] water

contaminate \kun-TAM-uh-nayt\

verb
1 a : to soil, stain, corrupt, or infect by contact or association b : to make inferior or impure by admixture 2 : to make unfit for use by the introduction of unwholesome or undesirable elements

My Facebook feed is contaminated by mindless idiots. Coincidentally, by the same mindless idiots that are contaminating the gene pool. Tie those tubes, bitches!

one bad ovum

yegg \YEG\

noun: safecracker; also : robber

Sometimes you've got to crack a few yeggs before you can devour the yolky insides of the safe.

furocious

leonine \LEE-uh-nyne\

adjective: of, relating to, suggestive of, or resembling a lion

Oliver, even on his best of days, is hardly capable of a leonine growl. He leans more toward A Brr-like whine.

world pain

weltschmerz \VELT-shmairts\

noun, often capitalized
1 : mental depression or apathy caused by comparison of the actual state of the world with an ideal state 2 : a mood of sentimental sadness

As the world is doused in tons of cold correctional fluid, I find myself in a state of Weltschmerz, missing my CSA and the ability to leave the house without losing toes.

misquoted

darling \DAHR-ling\

noun
1 : a dearly loved person 2 : favorite

Honestly, my darling, I don't give a fig.

puffy fussy

fustian \FUSS-chun\

noun
1 : a strong cotton and linen fabric 2 : high-flown or affected writing or speech; broadly : anything high-flown or affected in style

I greatly anticipate spring and a switch to fustian jackets from these oppressive down overcoats.

repel pellets

graupel \GROU-pul\

noun: granular snow

Such an inappropriate word for the day's weather. I'm certainly not ungrateful - the clouds can keep all the graupel, hail, sleet, and snow they'd like.

sequins and shit

ostensible \ah-STEN-suh-bul\

adjective
1 : intended for display : open to view 2 : being such in appearance : plausible rather than demonstrably true or real

The ostensible purpose for the ostrich's plumage is to attract a flashy mate, but he was actually an asexual Elvis impersonating bird that found a Bedazzler for cheap on Craigslist.

stamp it out

xylography \zye-LAH-gruh-fee\

noun: the art of making engravings on wood especially for printing

Though I always preferred working with linoleum, I'm sure there are some prints made by way of xylography at my new office.

not another miller

crucible \KROO-suh-bul\

noun
1 : a vessel in which metals or other substances are heated to a very high temperature or melted 2 : a severe test 3 : a place or situation in which concentrated forces interact to cause or influence change or development

I'd pay a pretty galleon for a crucible bought on Diagon Alley. It might just be the perfect crucible to be a crucible on those damned OWL potions crucibles.

the test of time

thole \THOHL\

verb: endure

Evidently today's mot du jour has tholed centuries of use. Though I can't say I have ever stumbled upon it before.

fringed peepers

valorous \VAL-uh-russ\

adjective
1 : possessing or acting with bravery or boldness : courageous 2 : marked by, exhibiting, or carried out with courage or determination : heroic

My valorous action of the day? Putting on fake lashes for no reason-the individual kind even! Okay, so it wasn't the courageousness Adler would have written home about, but I'll bet he never cemented faux furs close to his eyeballs.

granola nostalgia

kudos \KOO-dahss\

noun
1 : fame and renown resulting from an act or achievement : prestige 2 : praise given for achievement

First, who the fuck knew it was pronounced "koodahs"?!!!!!?? All these years I've been rhyming it with No-Doz.
Second, does anyone still eat Kudos bars? I feel like I haven't seen one since seventh grade.

hold on, holy see

defer \dih-FER\

verb
1 : put off, delay 2 : to postpone induction of (a person) into military service

In an attempt to defer research on newly named bishops, the Vatican deferred to Wikipedia to jazz up some holy bios.

not that

spendthrift
\SPEND-thrift\

noun: a person who spends improvidently or wastefully

It seems a bit counterintuitive that a spendthrift is not one who spends thriftily.

mor-duh

mordant \MOR-dunt\

adjective
1 : biting and caustic in thought, manner, or style : incisive 2 : burning, pungent

It wasn't precious, it was mordant - of course they had to take it to Mordor.

I <3 books

tome \TOHM\

noun
1 : a volume forming part of a larger work 2 : book; especially : a large or scholarly book

Last year I read over 20,000 pages. Nearly 1000 were wasted on the Game of Thrones tome.

throw away the key

calaboose \KAL-uh-booss\

noun: jail; especially : a local jail

Those little scheming kids need to knock it off with the eggs lest they wind up in the parochial calaboose.

mudslingers

epithet \EP-uh-thet\

1 : a characterizing word or phrase accompanying or occurring in place of the name of a person or thing 2 : a disparaging or abusive word or phrase 3 : the part of a taxonomic name identifying a subordinate unit within a genus

Epithet has become a #2 definition of itself. Reclaim positivity, epithet! You don't have to be only racial slurs and misogynistic brickbats.

muff dive in

headlong \HED-LAWNG\
adverb1 : with the head foremost 2 : without deliberation : recklessly 3 : without pause or delay

Santorum's headlong rush to combat the savagery of his surname only causes a frothy interest in the neologism.

thou shalt not

parochial
1 : of or relating to a church parish 2 : limited in range or scope (as to a narrow area or region) : provincial, narrow

Whilst ambling to the gym, one must avoid the notice of the parochial schoolchildren lest you be pelted with eggs.
Pictures of yolky sidewalks to follow!

before the clock strikes

rapporteur

An underused noun for someone who reports.

Ever the genius, Merriam Webster.

resolutions be damned

With the bright idea of posting a daily blog inspired by the word of the day, I am undermined on day one.

Today's word: incommunicado


Which means I've blogged far more than necessary today.