starting over

threshold \THRESH-hohld\

noun
1 : the section of wood or stone that lies under a door
2 a : the means or place of entry : entrance b : the place or point of beginning
3 : the point or level at which a physical or mental effect begins to be produced

I've been here before, I know what it looks like. But this time it's unwelcome and full of pain. I can't be at the threshold of a new beginning if I'm still spiraling into the abyss.