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orotund \OR-uh-tund\ adjective1 : marked by fullness, strength, and clarity of sound : sonorous 

2 :pompous, bombastic 

My dreams feature a beautiful, captivating presence, gregarious and orotund in speech. 

I don't know that girl. 

granulated

nonpareil \nahn-puh-REL\ adjective: having no equal 

This emptiness is nonpareil. Every pebble I find to toss into chasm becomes dust in the valley. For a brief moment it's as if that small seed will complete me, fill me, but after the adrenaline wears off, I'm still empty. 

chained in the dungeon

dudgeon \DUJ-un\ noun: a fit or state of indignation 

I'd complain that your advances are leaving me in high dudgeon, but I'm enjoying the torture far too much. 

stunted

efflorescence \ef-luh-RESS-unss\ noun1 a : the action or process of developing and unfolding as if coming into flower b : an instance of such development c : fullness of manifestation : culmination 2 : the period or state of flowering 3 : the process or product of efflorescing chemically 

Most days I wonder if we all get a period of efflorescence. Or if maybe I just wasn't dealt that card. 

Could it be there were extra jokers in my deck?

bruise pristine

fustigate \FUSS-tuh-gayt\

verb
1 : to beat with or as if with a short heavy club 2 : to criticize severely

Someone fustigated me last night.

read everything

redaction \rih-DAK-shun\

noun
1 a : an act or instance of preparing something for publication b : an act or instance of obscuring or removing something from a document prior to publication or release 2 : edition, version

The redactions are endless. The biggest mistake is reading too far into previous versions.

fucktarded

ceorl \CHAY-orl\

noun: a freeman of the lowest rank in Anglo-Saxon England

The man across from me, not you Korey, is the ultimate ceorl. Fucking dick.

high volume

verbose \ver-BOHSS\

adjective
1 : containing more words than necessary : wordy; also : impaired by wordiness 2 : given to wordiness

Can't sleep. Can't sleep.
My mind races through thoughts like a verbose dictator's rallying speech.

fucktarded

ceorl \CHAY-orl\

noun: a freeman of the lowest rank in Anglo-Saxon England

The man across from me, not you Korey, is the ultimate ceorl. Fucking dick.

hot

lamia \LAY-mee-uh\

noun: a female demon

The lamia in me is coming out tonight. Fuck me please.

wood

transpire \tran-SPYRE\

verb
1 : to give off vaporous material; specifically : to give off or exude watery vapor especially from the surfaces of leaves 2 : to become known or apparent : develop 3 : to take place : go on, occur

Cascades of moss transpire ominous mists in my world's dark glades. Below the sycamore, the future is brewing.

brain lozenge

demulcent \dih-MULL-sunt\

adjective: soothing

Ignorance and 90s club bangers are demulcent bliss.
Oh yeah, and Purple Rain.

stray pieces

xenophobia \zen-uh-FOH-bee-uh\

noun: fear and hatred of strangers or foreigners or of anything that is strange or foreign

My xenophobia is internal. I hate the parts of me I don't know but stumble across.

If one doesn't have a heart, how can it break in so many ways?

blank

admonish \ad-MAH-nish\

verb
1 a : to indicate duties or obligations to b : to express warning or disapproval to especially in a gentle, earnest, or solicitous manner
2 : to give friendly earnest advice or encouragement to

I have no earnest advice.

no exit

milieu \meel-YOO\

noun: the physical or social setting in which something occurs or develops : environment

The artificial milieu of the stage I've set desiccated under the harsh conditions of the atmosphere.
How am I still breathing.

thank you

doxology \dahk-SAH-luh-jee\

noun: a usually liturgical expression of praise to God

Tonight my doxology is internal. I should have known you'd be watching over me.

kitty loves

katzenjammer \KAT-sun-jam-er\

noun
1 : hangover 2 : distress 3 : a discordant clamor

As much as I've been a katzenjammer in the last few days, I love my life tonight. Spicy chai while reading by the fire of the grill, with fiends and family listening to fantastic music and preparing dinner inside.

tick

expunge \ix-SPUNJ\

verb
1 : to strike out, obliterate, or mark for deletion 2 : to efface completely : destroy 3 : to eliminate (as a memory) from one's consciousness

So much has been expunged from my timeline and at the same time, not enough.

slurp

ephemeral \ih-FEM-uh-rul\

adjective: lasting a very short time

My confidence is flawed. Haltingly ephemeral. Though always enhanced by a well mixed drink.

tripped trapped tickled + tossed

trousseau \TROO-soh\

noun: the personal possessions of a bride usually including clothes, accessories, and household linens and wares

Ha! My trousseau has been trounced in triplicate. I can't keep up and most of me as given up in putting back the pieces.