need it

accident \AK-suh-dunt\

noun
1 a : an unforeseen and unplanned event or circumstance b : lack of intention or necessity : chance
2 : an unfortunate event resulting especially from carelessness or ignorance
3 : a nonessential property or quality of an entity or circumstance

It's no accident I wake with the striped shirt tangled around me. I sleep with it religiously every night; staring at the stitching, repeated over and over, alternating colors, calms my mind when the dreams refuse to come.

awake

recalcitrant \rih-KAL-suh-trunt\

adjective
1 : obstinately defiant of authority or restraint
2 a : difficult to manage or operate b : not responsive to treatment c : resistant

My body is a recalcitrant fortress, certainly no temple. Even two tablets in, there's no sleep to be had.

blah

agog \uh-GAHG\

adjective: full of intense interest or excitement : eager

Fuck being agog about anything.